|Dilly, one day old ...|
|Dilly, four years old ...|
Today you are four. Maybe it's because you're my last but it feels like the past four years have elapsed in the blink of an eye. It's a thing that I both love and hate. I love that you are no longer a baby that needs me for every little thing, but I hate the thought that with each day that passes, you will rely on me less and less. Honestly, I want to be your everything, but deep down I want for you to be your own person even more.
So, forgive me if I hold on too tight, if I kiss you too much, if I snuggle too long. It's such a mixed blessing to watch your child grow and mature when you love them so endlessly as they are in this very moment.
But, I know that growing up is just a part of life and fighting it would only be a disservice to you. So, I won't fight. Instead, I will promise to continue to support, nurture and comfort you while simultaneously allowing you to fail, struggle and overcome. All lessons you need to learn.
All I ask of you, Dilly, is a few promises in return. In no specific order, here is what I ask of you on your fourth birthday.
- Live Big. I know at times I can be stifling because I'm busy, I'm tired or I just can't take the noise. Don't let that stop you. There is nothing more important to self esteem than being EXACTLY who you are. I love and am proud of who you are and always will. UNCONDITIONALLY.
- Know and stick to your convictions. People may say you're wrong, but you are the only person you have to answer to. Unless Dad or I catch you in a lie. Then, just fess up. It will help you in the long run.
- Put your incredibly absorbent brain to good use. Learn everything you can and share it with the people around you. I will always listen. Even if you're just reciting your favorite book, "Good Night Denver," for the hundredth time.
- Love with all your heart and let everyone know it. Don't fear the pain of love gone wrong, of friendship lost or unhappy endings. The rewards of loving with all that you have are always greater than the rewards you get from shielding yourself. This is not to say you need to love everyone, but be sure to always show kindness. You never know who you might need to lean on down the line.
- Listen to me the first time. I don't say things just to hear myself talk. When I say something, I mean it and you need to learn to respect that. I know that more often than not you are just testing the limits I've set for you, but trust me, if I set a limit, I'm not budging. So, don't waste your time.
- Always be a kid, even when you are old like me. I know that maturity has it's place but life will be so much more fulfilling if you keep your youthful exuberance.
Dilly, I love you to infinity and beyond and I am so blessed to be your mother. Happy birthday Baby Boo!