After almost two years of racing, I finally did it. I ran a race without going out too fast. And do you know what? It was my BEST.RACE.EVER. I felt good the entire time and managed to run negative splits (just missing my PR by 5 seconds). It was exactly the race I have been trying to run since day one.
And it gets even better. Because once I got home and checked the results, I found out that I had won the Athena (a.k.a. "big girl") division. So exciting. (And no, there weren't only three people in it. I bested 43 other "big girls"). How awesome is that?